Why is it so difficult to let go? Why is it that whenever I try to move ahead, memories tie me down? Why is it that one small step taken forward brings me back by a hundred more? Why is it that I cannot be true to myself anymore? Why is it that my smile is not real anymore? Why is it that small things do not matter anymore? Why do I feel suffocated when there are no boundaries around? Why is it that clean,fresh air is no more penetrating my lungs; purifying my mind and soul, filling it with unadulterated joy and happiness? Why is it that no matter how much I try to move away, I just come closer? Why is logic and reason failing me so deeply? Why is it that I am asking “why” always in my mind? Is this regret? Is this remorse? Is this hatred? Is this???
My mind is just a whirlpool of unanswered emotions..or are they feelings at all?? Maybe I’ve stopped feeling altogether..maybe I am not myself anymore…maybe I am just pretending and being what is expected of me…REALLY!!! Why have I stopped living?? Why is it that everything I feel belongs to me, turns out to be quicksand?? Why is it that beauty makes no sense to me? Why does everything seem so superficial?? Even I am giving in to this unreal world which, I was never a part of… chained to conventions, shackled under limits…I have somewhere lost myself…where is ME?? Or was there one ever??
